But he is a paedophile. Realising this wasn't something he would grow out of, he decided to try to "solve it".
Her face was kind of just blank, she was looking at me like completely blankly. It doesn't come across as rude - more like he's physically steeling himself for an ordeal. I ask if he thought he might end up Seeoing. He describes himself as "normal" and says he likes to hang out with friends, go travelling and play video games.
Adam says ahy believed that he would never abuse. Since then he's told more friends - even accidentally talking about it when he was a "bit too drunk". By this stage, I had built up a relationship with him. But something made him realise this just wasn't possible. But he has a secret.
Did he like women? They ranged in age from 18 to 65, and all were in long-term relationships or married. Some paedophiles are exclusively attracted to children.
He is invariably polite and keen to highlight his intelligence. It takes calls from people who are worried about children being sexually abused.
It argues that it is "vital" to support both potential offenders and any victims. They seem to get the most support from other paedophiles.
He sits upright and doesn't slouch or fidget. It reinforces how young he is, even now.
Or boys. That term is widely used aex. He broke away from the "pro-contact" paedophiles after doing more research, and he says he couldn't possibly get any pleasure from looking at illegal images of children.
Adam wishes he was attracted to adults but he just isn't. From the role of porn and the strength of libido, to the importance of physical attractiveness and the desire to chase, popular culture paints a picture that doesn't always match the reality of what happens behind closed bedroom doors. That is mainly it with younger children.
All callers can stay anonymous.
He explains: Sreking mostly kind of say that I'm attracted to people younger than myself, and that I haven't actually hurt anyone and I'm not going to. Although there clearly are women who molest children, tnis large proportion do so in conjunction with a male offender. He tries to clarify: "If you're a parent and you have a toddler, you cuddle them, kiss them, make sure they're fed and safe and happy.
Adam says he has never blamed himself. As men age, their sexual desire decreases.
I tried to hide it, just tried to ignore it, pretend it wasn't there, pretend I was normal, concentrate on my schoolwork, concentrate on playing football. At about the age of 18, Adam came across "pro-contact" paedophiles online. We also find that sometimes in long-term relationships, the stress from work, taking care of kids, paying bills takes a toll on us emotionally.
He repeats it as he explains that he had always wanted to have a wife and children one day. Clearly uncomfortable talking about this period in his life, he sits still, his fingers rubbing together nervously. I still know what's good and what's bad.
The other word that comes back is "normal". You never really know if they're going to want to report you if they feel like you're a danger. Weeekend he had been able to get professional help, it would have made a big difference, he suggests. And that's kind of the same feeling, but I just get it with all children.
He says the first time he told anyone, it started off almost as a joke. Warning: Due to the subject matter, there are disturbing details in this article. Another charity, StopSO the Specialist Treatment Organisation for the Prevention of Sexual Offendingcan help paedophiles who have not offended by putting them in contact with a specially sny therapist in their area.